The rant of the day

I don't know what am I going to do with Caleb now. He's such in the mood for 'I can't hear youuu', 'I don't want', 'I know I'm not allow touch that but what if I try to touch just like a little bit like this.....' or 'I know I cannot shout when didi is sleeping but what if I just raise my voice just a little bit like this......' and trust me, there are a lot more =.=

More than often, what I asked him to do fall on deaf ears and thats irked a lot of shit out from me. I ended up screaming my head's off and resorted to cane (which I dislike very much) and performed my kungfu martial arts. Sighhh........

I mean I know kids are rebellious but such a young age at ...... not even 4? He showed me his angry face whenever I tried to displine him. He groaned at me when I tried to reasoning with him. Throwing tantrums is a norm these day. My spark plug just snapped and I went berserk over him.

Believe me it's not a pretty sight.

Just before school holidays, I went over to his kindy and having one on one talk with his class teacher regarding his performance in school. Basically what he has learned, how is he coping with it and his (OMG) behaviour. The teacher commented that he's very intelligent boy and a fast learner but (there is always a 'but') he is very egocentric, talks a lot when teacher is teaching, throwing bad tantrums (yes, even in school in front of teacher) and when the teacher asked him to stand at the corner, he said 'I don't want!' and he sulked.

Sigh....

I love him. I love him with all my heart.

That is why I'm changing myself and I hope by that, he could see some goodness in his mommy. I'm using a different approach now. Whenever he irked the shit out of me, I just closed my eyes and take a deep breath while telling myself "IT JUST A PHRASE", "IT WILL GO AWAY", "HE WILL GROW UP". Or I'll walk away and cool myself for 10 seconds. Or I'll use more softer voice to reason with him.

Eventually when everything failed, I just rubbed my ears and say " whooooosha".......